print(“Hello 🙂 I’m Bexa!”)
Heya, it’s sweet of you to want to get to know more about me ^_^.
When I was about 8, I got morbidly addicted to…Neopets 😂 and in order to pimp out my pet page, I had to learn HTML/CSS and so I started learning how to build websites and I guess that’s where it all began.
This is me & my puppy, Tofu:
I made my first (very ugly) website when I was 10 on Angelfire. It was using a theme I had got from another website that’s when I discovered WordPress blogging. I got my first domain at 13, Vintagefairy.com (I don’t own it anymore), and started developing my own WordPress themes.
I’ve found one of my old blogs from when I was 14 (Yes used to I like emo boys 😂)
I started joining web design forums and since then online communities became my support and where I found friendship and learnt new skills. I met lots of people all over the world with the same interests and it nourished my interest in web design.
I didn’t grow up very wealthy. I grew up on benefits, lived in social housing, bought up by a single mother who was always away working. I secretly struggled with loneliness, self-esteem and mental health issues most of my life. I was never happy with who I was and blogging helped me overcome that anger and sadness by writing about my days, my friends and things that I loved. It gave me a platform for my very small voice and that’s why I still do it 🙂
As an only child, the internet became a place I found refuge as I could do whatever I wanted and I felt like I belonged. I was connected to so many awesome people and there was so much I could learn and do. I was never bored!
So, I guess you’re wondering what I ended up doing?
Well… I never got to be a programmer because, in college, I didn’t get the grades to study the subject so I thought I wasn’t smart enough. I didn’t know back then you don’t need a degree to get a job and even if I did I don’t think I would have been confident enough. I sadly gave up that dream before it even started.
I still thought about programming very often for as long as I remember. Here’s a very sad and awkward forum post with bad spelling that I found from when I was 14 😂:
I ended up doing graphic design – which I also LOVE!!! I’ve had a wonderful and fun career as a Digital Designer for the past 8 years designing for a wide range of industries: from beauty, footwear, to gaming and adTech.
I’ve worked in start-ups, for small businesses and also large well-known corps and experienced so many different work environments. I’ve honestly enjoyed every second of my career. I value all the lessons and skills I’ve learnt and stayed in contact with all the amazing people I’ve met.
I’ve been so lucky to have a career in something that I love.
I’m scared to have a MASSIVE ambition and not succeed14-year-old me
When I read that quote from an old forum post I found last year. I cried.
So, in 2020 I quit my design career and decided to go back to school to study a Masters in Computer Science. I finally decided to take the dive to learn more, work towards a more technical field and finally try something I’ve always wanted to do. There’s some unfinished business to do 🏁
I love learning new skills because it gives me more tools to build ideas to life. I still love tinkering on my websites (as you can see) but I’m not the same lonely child anymore; I’ve grown up and lived a fun-filled life with so many vibrant experiences which I want to share in this blog.
My life goal is to help others raise their self-esteem and believe in themselves and to know life is just for living ANY WAY you want…blogging helped me find my way and I hope writing helps others, who are lost, find theirs too.
My dream is for everyone in the world to feel comfortable in their own skin and accept themselves and others around them. I believe in harmony, diversity and that life is one big adventure.
I hope you enjoy reading my blog as much as I enjoy writing it.